that's not supposed to be there

The growth of bone on the side of my knee - jesus, how did I not notice that????

My neighbor Carol came over after my doctor's appointment on Friday. I was pretty upset but she made a lot of good points about how this is just one more thing I have to work through. I'm trying to look on the positive side of things. Like, now I have a good ending for my book. Zombie knee replaced by metal parts. I wonder if they could make me a mechanical knee recycled out of coke cans. I'm guessing you don't get to choose a color, but I'd like a pink mechanical knee. I don't care if I can't see it. I'll know it's pink and that would make me feel better.

Should have done research on mechanical knees today. Instead I tried to find some work clothes. I hate shopping. I didn't buy anything. Then I went for a walk which, these days, is getting hard to do. It feels like the top part of my leg is completely detached from the bottom part, and that I have a fracture running down the lateral side of my right shin. I got some topical analgesics at the pharmacy (and an unloader brace). The first one I tried, arthritis arrest, not only smelled hideous (baby powder - I don't know why but I HATE that smell, especially when guys smell like it) but it also burned my skin - not to be totally negative, it did reduce the swelling a lot. But I could barely sleep last night because the skin on my knee felt like it was on fire. I tried to wash it off but I guess that shit soaked into my skin. Now I'm using arnicare gel. It doesn't smell and doesn't burn my skin. It's helping a little bit, or maybe that's wishful thinking on my part.

I did find a cool Kate Spade cover for the Kindle my parents bought me but I haven't ordered it yet. I downloaded some books but haven't practiced reading them yet. Still trying to get used to the idea of a Kindle...

Off to Vegas for two days, then Virginia for Wednesday - Friday. I am a little stressed out right now about my leg collapsing while I'm at a customer site. Well, I can only do what I can do and the bad shit will just make a funny story later.